I guess that is the way life is. God knows I have had more than my share of demons to wrestle with, but after a long time, I have finally learned that you cannot change the past, that all you really can do is look in the mirror every day and ask yourself "What can I do to be better today than I was yesterday?", and when you find the answers, you work on it. I am a long way from where I want to be, but a heckuva lot closer than I was.